Regina Dawn Akers

Join us for Be the Love ‘08, a gathering in purpose and love. Come be with us. Share your inspirations and your challenges. Learn from others as they share theirs. Dance with us, sing with us, laugh with us, meditate with us. In Love together, as family through Spirit, we realize more deeply the Love that we are. That is our vision. That is our intent. True heart-felt realization is the purpose of Be the Love ‘08.

Question: Good morning, Holy Spirit. What would you like to share with us regarding vibrational levels?

Answer: First of all, I want to tell you all that you are doing a great job of waking yourself up. This is important for you to know. You are waking yourself up. I cannot wake you up. If I were to wake you up before you were ready, I would violate your free will as the Son of God. That is not something I can do. That is not something I would want to do. To violate freedom is to destroy God, and God cannot be destroyed. God is eternal truth. God lives forever free. (Amen.)

So you are waking yourself up, and you are doing this through use of symbols. The symbols themselves have no real power. They are only tools used at the level of form. That which truly wakes you up is desire. When you see through the use of symbols to desire, you see truly. When you see that symbols are meaningless tools and desire is everything, you are waking up to the power that is the Son of God.

Our discussion of vibrational levels is another symbol. It is a great and useful symbol that I encourage you to understand if understanding of this symbol is helpful. If it is not helpful, I encourage you to let it go. There are other symbols, and all symbols are helpful when they are used in ease and joy. As you feel strain, frustration, self-chastisement and loathing, recognize that symbol is not helpful and let it go. Trust Me to bring you another symbol, and another symbol will be given. Or I will give you understanding of the current symbol without your effort and strain.

Let all things be given as a gift from Me. Do not work to give to yourself; this reinforces the belief that you are alone.

The vibrational level symbol is very useful because it shows you how you choose desire and how desire leads to effects. Choosing desire is not totally conscious. That is, you can think you are choosing one desire when you are choosing another, and the symbol of vibrational levels helps you see which desire you are actually choosing now.

Let’s use the example of wanting guidance from Me. At the level of consciousness, you may think you are choosing the desire to awaken by choosing to want My guidance. However, if you have judged that something is wrong, and out of fear or lack you are wanting guidance as a correction, you are actually choosing to see yourself as alone. And since this choice is your desire, the perception of aloneness shall be the effect. In other words, you will not know guidance.

When you choose the perception of separation as a way of seeing now, you choose to desire that perception.

Let me say that again.

When you choose the perception of separation as a way of seeing now, you choose to desire that perception.

If your thought is, “I am alone. I need guidance,” you have just chosen the perception of “I am alone.” In choosing that, you expressed your desire. Because you desire it, that shall be your perception.

Do you see how this works?

This is why it is important to be aware of your current feeling and to consciously out of willingness choose your perception now.

Choosing to trust the mystery of God is an easy and useful perception, because it is choosing to perceive that you are not alone…you are fully connected with the Allness that is Love…and it is choosing to trust it without needing to understand it. When you need to understand it, you listen to doubt that it may not be so. When you choose the perception that Allness of Love may not be so, you choose to desire to see it that way, and that shall be your experience through your choice in desire.

All things are given you because you have asked it to be so.

The ego is quite literally the result of fear and judgment, and so whenever you listen to the ego (the thinking mind or the little self), you are choosing the perception of fear and judgment. This is the perception that you are alone and separate, and that perception shall be given you.

Choosing to trust without knowing how or why…choosing to trust without needing understanding…this is the highest level of trust in the world. You are asking to see the perfection of love in all things when you choose this level of trust. And if you hold to this level of trust, this is all you shall see.

I have said that seeing with Me is a moment-to-moment decision. Maybe you see more clearly now how this decision is made. It is made through your true choice in desire. It is made through what you choose to believe. It is made through the thoughts you choose to listen to and through the feelings you decide to live from. And any time you choose to change a habit in order to begin making a new choice, you are expressing a new desire and you shall experience a different effect.

If you worry, and you worry about your worrying because you’ve learned that worrying keeps you at a low vibrational level, choose to allow your worrying. By allowing your worrying, you choose to trust that you are perfect as you are now. This is a desire to see yourself differently, and this desire shall lead you to a new way to see.

The symbol of vibrational level is helpful, because it allows you to see that choosing low vibrational energies pulls you down, while choosing high vibrational energies pulls you up to a higher way of seeing. Know that behind all of this exists only the cause and effect of desire, but it is the cause and effect of the desire you are actually choosing as opposed to the one you think you are choosing. In that way, awareness of desire is important to will for. Will for knowing the desire you are choosing by being a student of feeling. Feel the vibrational level of your desire more than you listen to the story in your head. When you feel fear or other feelings that may be the effects or off-spring of fear, be willing to raise your vibrational level by choosing another perception.

• Choose the perception of trust. Trust the mystery without needing understanding.

• Choose the perception of love. Choose to know thy Self without needing to know what thy Self may be.

• Choose the perception that is not fear. Choose the perception that is knowledge of not alone.

In choosing this, you desire to see differently, and this we may call “raising your vibrational level to the level at which you hear and know Me.”

Question: Please share what you want to share.

Answer: It is time for you to learn the difference between fear and intuitive prompts. You will make some errors for a time, because you still trust fear and expect it to protect you. That’s ok. You cannot make a critical error. When you notice that you have listened to fear, simply say to yourself, “Ok. I see that I listened to fear there.” Forgive yourself immediately, and let Me be the like the GPS device. Let me recalculate the route based on where we are now. I will always do that, and if you will always trust the moment without wanting to go back and recorrect the past, we can get on together, moving forward in the same direction very quickly. If you want to go back and recorrect the past, I will wait for you. When you are ready to join with Me, we will move on together.

Let go of the past. Once I have recalculated the route, let go of the past completely, and join with Me on the recalculated route now.

Question: (Saying my mantra) I Am that I Am.

Ok. I just took a moment to let go of the belief that I could have made a mistake by not listening to you. I saw guilt in my mind and a belief that I could be wrong. I saw how this belief was merely an obstacle to listening to you now. Nothing more. I repeated my mantra to clear my vibrational level of the past. I am ready to move forward by listening to you now.

Answer: As you listen more carefully…tune into My vibrational level more consistently…you will receive more instructions that are truly bizarre to the thinking mind or to the little self. If you try to reconcile the instructions with the little self before moving forward, you will stand still because the little self cannot reconcile with the instructions I shall give. I am leading you from the little self.

This is also why you shall sometimes make mistakes. There are times you will not listen to My instructions because they are bizarre to the little self. That is ok. Remember that you cannot make a critical error, let go of the past and move forward by listening to Me now. I can always recalculate the route.

Your brothers are one with you. If I give an instruction that requires your brother’s listening and he chooses to hear the voice of his little self, that is ok. He also cannot make a critical error. Always let go of the past and let Me recalculate now. Always I am moving in the right direction. I cannot be confused about our destination, so you can always trust listening to Me now. I am never lost. No decision of fear gets in My way. I always see clearly to where we want to go; I see clearly our goal from any point on the road.

What you want to focus on learning is the difference in the feeling of little self guidance, which comes from fear, and My guidance, which does not. You will notice there is no fear in My guidance, even though the instructions may be completely bizarre to the little self. If you let little self commentary get into the guidance, fear will become attached to it, but you will not lose sight of the fact that this bizarre guidance at first came with no fear.

As you get better attuned to the no fear vibration that accompanies My guidance, you will get better at trusting it even though the little self can not agree. And the little self will not be able to agree, because I am leading you from the belief that you are that little self. If I led you to do what the little self wanted, I would be teaching you to maintain the belief that you are that self. I am teaching you that that self is not what you are, but I am teaching you through the vibration of no fear.

Whenever fear arises, it is because you are listening to the voice of little self. This is always the case. There is no fear when you listen to only Me. You may have heard My words clearly, but the little self commentary is what added the feeling of fear. Therefore, you must learn that you cannot trust the feeling of fear. Whenever you are trusting the feeling of fear, you are trusting the voice of little self. When you trust no fear, you trust Me, because there is no fear in Me. I am not fear. Know Me in the vibration of no fear.

Do not listen to fear and call it guidance. In trusting guidance as the feeling of fear, you do not teach yourself to listen to Me. See fear as the wrong vibration…not as a judgment against yourself, but as being out of alignment. Use the method I have given you, which is the mantra you were assigned. Use this method and you know you have not slipped into listening to fear. When your vibrational level has been raised back to the level of no fear, do what you hear to do. The instruction you hear may be new or it may be the same. You cannot discern guidance based on the instruction. You discern that it is guidance based on the feeling of no fear.

You are a student of feeling now, not thought. You are learning to tune in at a vibrational level, not think yourself into understanding. Learn to feel and to make adjustments based on the feeling. Keep the mind focused on now. You cannot attune when the mind is going over the past or dreaming about the future. See your mantra as your most useful tool now. Use it always.

Bless you. I am with you now. I am with you always, but I want your mind focused on now. Find Me now. Always find Me in the moment called now. Keep looking only there. Stay there. Stay now.

Question: Hi, Holy Spirit. What I would like now is very specific coaching on how to let go of self. I am ready to take these steps.

Answer: Great. Realize that letting go of self is a moment-to-moment decision. In each moment of time, you must want to be only Me. In any moment that you want the experience of something else…of a self…that shall again be your experience. Accepting that this is always your choice is a very important first step. If in any situation you choose to forget that you have a choice, you shall again experience the experience of victim, because you have again chosen that experience through your choice to forget.

Question: Ok. I got that. It is always my choice, and there isn’t a single circumstance in which it isn’t my choice.

Answer: Mantras can be helpful for a time. They keep your mind focused on your true desire so that it cannot wander off and be focused on something else. This is what is called mind training. Mind training is nothing more than reminding yourself who is boss. Your desire is the one that leads. The mind is the one that must listen. Since you have truly forgotten this law of cause and effect, intense mind training is helpful in placing the proper order of things back into the conscious awareness of your experience.

Question: Alright. I am ready.

Answer: Your mantra is a silent saying, and the words themselves are not important at all. What is important is the vibrational memory they invoke.

Question: Ok. What’s next?

Answer: The first mantra that you shall use is “I Am that I Am.” This mantra is a reminder to the mind that you exist. You exist in every situation and at all times, and never is the truth of your existence threatened. With this memory firmly in place, you will quickly notice the idea that you do not exist when it arises as a fear in any situation. Whenever you notice this fear…and all fear is this fear…quickly and willingly repeat your mantra. Your mantra is given as a reminder of what is true and what is false. Any other instruction that is needed in the moment will be given when the vibrational level is returned to the level of your mantra. All you must do is return willingly to the mantra whenever you feel threatened by fear.

Realize that the mantra is not a protection from fear or protection from a specific situation in form. It is merely a vibrational tuning, which reminds you of what is true. In remembering the truth, you also recognize that which is false.

Question: Ok. I appreciate these very simple instructions. What else would you share?

Answer: Do not delay. Do not wait to start. Begin your practice now.

Question: Good morning, Holy Spirit. I’m wondering if you will talk to us about discernment. How do we know the difference between intuition and fear?

Answer: The best answer to this question is that fear comes from fear. If you are feeling a particular prompt, and you are feeling no fear or judgment at the time, that prompt is coming from intuition. However if you judge the prompt, you may then feel fear. But the fear is not coming from the prompt. It is coming from your judgment of it.

Question: Can’t couples feel opposite prompts, and doesn’t this result in conflict? Isn’t there a desire to have my prompt be right, which means that I see the other’s prompt as wrong?

Answer: It is unlikely that a true intuitive prompt would conflict with another true intuitive prompt since intuition comes from the same guiding source. When there seems to be conflict between prompts, there is evidence that fear has entered or additional interpretation has been added to a basic intuitive prompt. This is not the time to sit down and determine who is right and who is wrong. This is a time to sit down and discover together the intuitive guidance that works for you. We are not talking about compromise or winning and losing. We are talking about discovering together as one.

Question: This sounds like what Laurent and I did together yesterday. We called it finding our space together. What feedback would you give us on the process we used?

Answer: Actually, it was very good. There was a lot of fear in your discussion, but what you chose to do that was very important was not judge the fear. You agreed to acknowledge that fear exists and you agreed to allow it now. You also agreed that letting go of fear is the real goal and you imagined how your “space” may change as fear disappears. These were very good steps to take. Bravo on your conversation.

Question: Is there anything we could have done better?

Answer: There is always something that can be done better, but “better” has a way of coming when you have readied yourself for it. A better question to ask is, “How can we ready ourselves to work together better?”

The answer, of course, is willingness. You must want to continue to find your space together, more than you want to have your own way. As long as there is “my way” and “your way”, there is separation. “Our way” can be a better way as long as “our way” does not become different than “their way.” Couples are useful healing relationships when they are a symbol of oneness, but as they become an institution unto themselves, they are merely a form of engendering a continued perception of separation.

Question: Is there anything else you’d like to share about discerning between intuition and fear?

Answer: Discernment will become clearer as you desire discernment more than you desire to be right or to have your own way. You may notice some fear at the thought of letting go of your way or of being right. That is only the ego’s fear of ceasing to exist. Do not let it bother you, but do notice it. The ego will not be let go before you are ready. You cannot do anything other than move at your own pace. There is nothing to fear. The ego tells you that you are dying, but that isn’t true. You are learning to recognize the true cause of suffering, which is the same as learning the difference between what you want and what you don’t want. But until you learn this fully, you will keep the idea of ego because you think you want it. It cannot truly die, because it does not truly live. It is an idea that is held to because it is valued, and when you no longer value it, you will choose to step through fear and let it go.

You are doing this now. Be gentle with yourself in the process, and be aware that you are stepping through fear. Being gentle does include not going faster than you feel you can bear, but it also includes not avoiding when you are ready to look at and release fears. Know thy Self and listen to your intuitive guidance. Without fear, it guides you perfectly according to your desire to be guided now.

Note: Before writing this message with HS, I had this clarity:

Question: Good morning, Holy Spirit. Please talk to me more about the fear of not existing. I feel like I am getting the edge of some important clarity, but I would like to talk to you so this clarity can be pulled more into the level of consciousness.

Answer: You are beginning to see that attaching your identity to the ego is a decision that must engender fear and suffering. And you can never be completely free of fear and suffering as long as your identity is attached there. For always, there will be some idea that threatens the idea of your existence, and always you will feel compelled to react to that.

Question: Right now I am seeing how true this statement is. I can feel total panic at the idea of some threats. I can feel lashing out in hatred at others. It seems that fear and hatred are the two primary responses to this fear, although those two responses can be numbed to the point that they are barely recognizable.

Answer: It is true that uncovering the ego can often result in feeling raw feelings that were not felt before, but some people have always felt the raw feelings and only the reasons for the feelings are covered up. They feel intense fear and hatred, but the reason for the emotions is put “out there.” You are uncovering the ego when you are in touch with the raw emotions and looking at the ideas that cause the effects of those feelings.

Question: Ok. So we need to look at cause and effect together before we can truly say that we see the ego. Until then, it is still hidden.

Answer: The ego is hidden in some very creative ways, so your willingness to see it must be very great if you are to see clearly all of the ways you have tricked yourself.

Metaphysical studies are helpful, but the primary purpose of those studies is to bring your willingness into alignment with your true desire using the tool of intellectual-awareness. But this work cannot be done if you remain at the level of intellect. You must place the desire for intellectual-controlling aside and be willing to understand through awareness.

Awareness-understanding is seeing. It is experiencing for oneself. You can have awareness-understanding without intellectual-understanding and it is still pure understanding. But if you have intellectual-understanding without awareness-understanding, you do not understand at all.

You must see what you are doing, and you can only see when you truly desire to see. Intellectual-understanding isn’t truly needed at all, although it can be helpful in increasing your desire.

Question: Ok. And I can see that the greatest obstacle to seeing is fear.

Answer: Yes, and fear comes from the judgment you are wrong.

Question: Alright. Well as you know, I seem to go through periods of being very conscious of fears and through periods of being less conscious. Right now I am in a period of being more conscious, and it’s very difficult. What would you recommend, both to me and my partner?

Answer: Remember that your purpose is to see. Become very focused on the idea that you want to see, and that will help to overcome the desire not to see. Be willing to be slow and patient. You can be clearly focused without frantic searching. Don’t forget to rest and breathe, even as you are overcome by feelings that are the effect of believing illusion.

Sometimes you seem very lost. When you are lost, just rest and wait. Rest and wait as long as it takes, and avoid acting or making decisions from there.

When you feel the peace and knowing of clarity, act and move from there.

When you are lost in confusion you are not clear. Don’t listen to your mind then.

When you are clear, trust your knowing. Do not doubt when you know.

Question: You’ve been asking us to get in touch with our true Self, but I find this very hard to do in the midst of so much fear.

Answer: When you are hearing “rest and wait,” you are hearing the Voice of Peace and you are in touch. So stay focused on the “rest and wait,” and let everything else just be. Stay slow. In slowness, you listen to the quietness because the intent is aligned.

Question: Anything else?

Answer: I’m giving you everything. Stay focused on the desire to see. Stay slow. Stay quiet. Hold hands and love one another. The ego has set up strong defenses that you are not yet seeing, but through your willingness and with the help of a strong, loving partnership, you shall see.

Question: The partnership isn’t necessary, is it?

Answer: This partnership has the potential of being very, very helpful if you both choose to see it that way. Do not underestimate the helpfulness you bring to each other. Do not let the mind tell you that “out” is a better way. The part of the mind that wants “out” is fear. The part of the mind that judges and hates is fear also. Learn not to listen to fear, and you will more easily know the unblinded guidance of your heart.

Question: Holy Spirit, our true desire is clear and our challenges/fears are becoming more clearly seen. The temptation to pull apart is strong, because in each other we seem to face our greatest fears. Our experience now seems very, very tough. What would you share?

Answer: The more you do together, the better. You each need your own space, your own quiet time apart, but right now you also need more time together. See the time you spend together as foundation-building. Since your relationship is the foundation you have chosen to help yourselves awaken, foundation-building (or relationship building) is important. Be together in a variety of ways. Pray together, play together, read together, share in work together…

You don’t have to make yourselves be together more than you truly desire, but if you look within you will find that you desire to be together, sharing, more than you are because you both desire the strengthening of this foundation.

Question: What about…

Ahhhh! I’m having a tough time asking this next question. It is hard because there is so much judgment and fear in my mind. I am judging the question and I am judging me as the scribe. I have a huge fear that I am just writing what I want to hear. This fear is so big that it makes me want to throw down my pen and runaway and hide. I feel it in my chest.

Before I continue, what would you share about my fear?

Answer: A scribe creates her ability to scribe. This is a creation in that it takes the formless and brings it into form. (In this way, I do not use the word “creation” in the way that A Course in Miracles uses the word. I use “creation” in the way of an artist.)

An artist creates his painting or his sculpture or his magnificent musical piece of work, but any great artist will also tell you the work was born through him. He both created it and he didn’t. He created the piece of work by allowing it to be born through him in a specific form.

The scribe does this. She allows the birth of formless into form as a specific expression through being a scribe.

Because the scribe is a partner or co-creator in the birthing of what may be considered “holy words,” she can also feel guilt or fear about these words. She can fear that her ego sometimes does the writing. She can fear she is not open enough or hearing deep enough. She can even fear that she is making up the entire scribal experience and there is no co-creation with anything divine. The latter may be the greatest fear for many people who are scribe.

The best thing a scribe can do is allow the flow of words that comes through her. She can feel the flow as it comes through at a consistent rate without a break in the flow. Trust this flow that keeps flowing like a river running downhill. It is different than thought, which is rambling and seems to fire from all directions. It is a steady flow that seems to come from one consistent source. As long as the words are coming in this flow, write down the words that you hear.

Your next question frightens you because it is a question that addresses the greatest fear that you have. You are afraid that your fear will be a block to hearing Me or that it may be your ego that answers. You are also afraid, since you fear that scribing may be a human creation rather than a co-creation with the divine…you also fear that asking this question may be exposing yourself as a fake. You’ve had this fear for a long time, and it comes up around many questions. It is time to look at your greatest fear, because it is your greatest fear that hurts you the most.

I understand that facing your doubts is difficult for you, but that is only because you fear your doubts are real. In facing them, you will learn they are not real. In willingness and readiness, and out of a pure desire to take this step, ask the question you fear to ask now.

Question: Holy Spirit, the question is about Ho’oponopono. I seem to have three questions about it. 1) Isn’t it a practice of seeing a problem on the screen instead of accepting everything as perfect now? 2) Doesn’t it forget about the free will of the Son of God? That is, doesn’t it not allow upset and illness when upset and illness may be chosen? 3) If we are looking to the screen for a change in effects, aren’t we going to be disappointed and therefore lose ourself on the screen?

Answer: Eckhart Tolle also sees a problem on the screen. Jesus, as he seems to come to you in many forms, also sees a problem on the screen. All great healers see a problem on the screen and want to fix it, not because they believe it is real, but because they know you do. A great example is the example of a parent who is helping a child. The child may be afraid of monsters under the bed or in the closet. The parent knows there is nothing to fear. But the parent may still perform some magic; he may talk the monsters into leaving and then show the child they are gone. He does this to address the child in a way that will generate a moment of ‘no fear.’ He knows the child’s fears may return tomorrow night; he knows what the child feared is not real; and he knows a day will come when the child will outgrow his fears. Still, he does what he does now to bring peace to the child now in order to be truly helpful.

This is what a healer does. He reduces fear through the willingness that fear be lessened in order to provide rest and a greater opportunity for awakening. To ignore fears that seem very real is not helpful. That only generates more fear. To address those fears lovingly while also knowing they are not real is a loving and gentle way of helping the mind awaken. But in order to do this you must be able to see the fears. Seeing them and believing them is not the same thing. Fears can never be healed by believing they are real.

If you are looking to the screen for effects and you believe fear is real, you will experience great upsets when there does not seem to be a change in effect. When you look to the screen for a change in effects and you do not believe it is real, you will not experience the same upset. You will, however, continue to feel called to be helpful. As long as fear is pictured on the screen of the mind, those who understand that the mind is dreaming will do what they are called to do in order to help the mind awaken.

Question: And what about us, specifically Laurent and me?

Answer: You experience a lot of fears and you do not yet realize that your fears are not real. However, you are ready to grow from childhood into adulthood by letting go of imaginary fears. Again, this is why you have come together.

When you are ready to address your fears and let them go, it is no longer helpful to depend entirely on magic. Some magic may still be helpful for a time, but what is most useful is to learn that your fears are not real. Likewise, it is not helpful to hide from your fears by avoiding them.

Talk about your fears together without judging yourself for your fears. Be willing to see how you uphold your fears, and be willing to change habits in order to learn that your fears are not real. Also be patient with yourselves and one another. Treat yourselves like a loving parent treats a frightened child. Be gentle in addressing the fears, realizing that the child within still fears they are real.

Question: How are fears healed?

Answer: Through willingness to face them and see they are not real. At some point when the child is ready, he must look under his own bed in order to learn that there are no monsters living there.

Question: I’m seeing lots of ego in the mind as thoughts, and I am feeling a variety of emotions including sadness, desperation, hatred, resentment and fear. I am also experiencing moments of clarity, joy, and a general feeling of “its-all-perfect.” It also seems that new and exciting guidance is coming in quickly, and I am very excited to take all of these steps. I seem to alternate between the trust-mind and the fear-mind, and I’m noticing that the feeling that accompanies the fear-mind is imprisonment, while the feeling that accompanies the trust-mind is complete openness. It also seems that I cannot control the going back and forth right now, so I seem to have periods of feeling like I can breathe followed by periods of feeling like I can’t. When I am in trust-mind, it feels natural. But when I am in fear-mind, it feels real; thus the feeling of imprisonment.

I can feel that both fear and trust are present in my mind now, right this second, which explains the frantic going back and forth. What would you share now, if anything?

Answer: Looking at the mind is key. There is a great fear about looking at the mind, because there is a judgment that the mind is wrong or bad or inherently unworthy. You have been feeling lately that you are guilty for imagining bad things or for creating your own unhappiness by seeing through a selfish (or separate) perspective. When you see these realizations in the mind, you then want to feel better because you think feeling better is better (or good or worthy). What you really need to do here is look at this judgment of good and bad, and realize it is judgment of freedom, which is judgment of the Son of God.

I recommend slowness now. Slowness while observing is a peaceful way of experiencing fluctuations, and fluctuations must be seen. You can’t deny anything in the mind, which is why you must be willing to relax and experience it. As long as you deny it, it is still there, and it will persist in some form until it is embraced and accepted. To release it, you must love it, and you love it by letting it be exactly what it is. You don’t love it when you ask it to be different. You love it when you let it be what it is.

You are picking up on My guidance intuitively as you are stepping through this process. You are right to realize that you must let the thoughts go while deciding to be with the emotions. Continuing to believe the thoughts continues to recreate the experience. Letting go of the thoughts and being with the experience is accepting or embracing that which has already been created. It can also be called surrender to the moment, but you are only truly surrendered to a moment when you let it be exactly as it is without wishing it was different. (We’ve talked about this before. You can review that message it if is helpful, but more than the words, I want you to feel the energy of the message. The energy communicates to the mind in a way that words never can. Be willing to not understand intellectually, and trust that your feeling or intuition knows what to do. The more you trust your formless feeling, the more you are in touch with the guidance that gently comes from Me.)

Wait through this period, and continue to trust all things including the time you spend experiencing the fear-based mind.

p.s. The message Holy Spirit references in this message is Choose to be happy with the wish to be different

Question: For us, what would you share this morning? Be very specific, please.

Answer: Tell me how you feel.

Question: I feel like I can’t be myself. I feel like ego is all I can hear. It is very strong, and since I know this isn’t really me, I also feel lost. I want “me” back. I feel like “me” when I live in perfect trust with a clear mind and my heart is open. Right now that isn’t my experience, so I am sad, scared and angry. I lash out in hate. I feel imprisoned.

What would you share?

Answer: Grounding yourself is important, and this is what you did by sharing how you feel. When you share how you feel with yourself, yourself answers with what is true and what is not true. Somewhere within you, more as a feeling or intuition than as words, you hear that how you feel is not how you really feel. Something within you knows that the surface feelings, surface fears and judgments are not your truth, and so it tells you this isn’t real. You find yourself writing how you feel while also realizing from some faraway point of recognition that this isn’t true.

That faraway point of recognition that doesn’t believe your dramas as true is that which you call Me. It is your Holy Spirit, fully and perfectly aware within you. It is the Voice of Peace.

It is very important to listen to the Voice of Peace within you, and one thing this Voice is telling you is that your feelings aren’t true. This is a very literal statement. The feelings that you seem to experience and suffer from are not your true feelings. At a level within you that is deeper than the feelings you feel, those feelings are not there. They are not there because they are absent. They are absent because they aren’t real, and so they do not exist within the depth of you.

The depth of you is where you reside, and so if you are to know you at a conscious level, you must let your consciousness go there. If you stay at the surface, caught up in it as if it is real, the surface will be your experience and you will feel lost. But if you bring your consciousness to your depth, depth rises into your consciousness and that shall be your experience, even within the same experience of form.

I have told you before that it is an error to focus on your need for healing, because this makes your need for healing real. To focus on your need for healing is to remain at the surface, so the surface is your experience. You do not need healing. The healed mind exists within you now. The mind that has never lost its peace and knowledge is within you now. You cannot need healing when all perfection is a part of you. You must only get in touch with that part and know that part is the part that is real.

I have told you that zero code is zero code, and there is nothing other to learn. All you have to realize is that the false is false, and the false is not you. In letting it go as untrue, it has no effect on your experience. It is holding to it that makes it seem real for you.

We’ve talked about addiction lately, and I’ve said addiction is only illusion. Addiction is illusion because it isn’t the truth of you; it isn’t the truth of the depth of you. But at the surface, which is wholly untrue, addiction is an experience you seem to suffer with. Addiction is merely this: Addiction is staying at the surface and experiencing the surface as if it is your truth. Addiction disappears the instant you go deeper and dive into the depth of you.

I’ve said that addiction is habit. It is a habit to live at the surface of consciousness. Therefore, it takes focus to go into the depth and live your living from there. However, this focus can also become a habit, until living from your depth is a natural reaction to all circumstances of form.

I’ve told you that looking outside yourself is more hurtful than you realize. This is because you will never find yourself there. You are that which is the depth of you, and you cannot find that on the outside. To focus outside is to stay at the surface, and the surface experience will be confused with you. You will feel lost.

Do not try to bring the surface into you to fix you. You can never find an answer there. Go within. Get in touch with you, then bring that to the surface. That is the most helpful thing you can do.

Question: How is our relationship helpful to this process?

Answer: Your relationship is not anchored without. Your relationship is anchored within…deep, deep within. Your purpose together is to hold hands and touch that anchor. When you touch that anchor, you know it. The surface problems fade or disappear. Together, you are to go into that anchor. Become that anchor. Exist in and as that anchor. When you hold hands, see and speak from that anchor, separation disappears completely.

The key here is the knowing within. It is a very strong place within you. Reach in for only that, knowing it is there. Reach only in. Do not reach out. Read my messages again without adding anything to them. Read them again and see that I am clearly asking you to reach in for you, because you will find you there. Once you live from you, nothing else is a problem.

Question: Holy Spirit, I am getting in touch with a fear of not existing, which feels a little different than fear of death. Fear of death to me is fear of existence ending. This fear seems different. It seems to be fear of not existing now, and it seems to be deeply tied to the “eyes of others.” Is there anything you would share on this fear of not existing?

Answer: Looking to metaphysics and education (or intellect) for the answer to all of your questions is not helpful. It is not helpful because metaphysics is not truth. Metaphysics is the expression of ideas in form, and any expression of ideas in form, no matter how helpful they may be, is not truth. As I have told you before, there is no truth in the world. By this I mean that anything expressed in form is at best only an echo of or a reflection of truth, but it is not truth itself.

Truth itself is found in the formless, and although you will attempt to bring it back into form as words and ideas in order to share it, the words and ideas are only an expression of it and not It itself.

The fear of not existing is the fear of death, except that the fear of death is a projection of a current fear into the future. When you are in touch with the fear of not existing, you are realizing this is a current fear in the mind now. To project it as the possibility of death is a form of not recognizing the strength of this fear now.

As we have discussed, this fear drives you much more than you know. There are many, many ways that you try to prove your existence to yourself in the eyes of others, because seeing it there tells you that you do exist. The problem with this is that it is also projection. You have not truly gotten in touch with your existence by seeing it in the eyes of others. You have only covered up your fear by telling yourself that proof of your existence resides out there.

The only way to overcome your fear of not existing is to know thy Self. As long as you do not know you, you will continue to fear that you do not exist. You get in touch with you as you are by being willing to move from the form to the formless, for truth can only be found in the place where form is not.

To get in touch with the formless, start now. Turn your eyes inward. You may turn it on your breath if you want, but you must also realize that breath is still form. When you are in touch with your breath you are not in touch with the formlessness that you are, but you are turning in the right direction and that is a start. When you are in touch with your breath and you have relaxed with that, be willing to go in deeper…deeper to where there is no form.

The thinking mind is a distraction from the formless because the thinking mind is pure expression of form, but the thinking mind need not be seen as a block to formlessness. Anything seen as a block shall be experienced as a block, and the experience of a block will keep you from going where you want to go.

See the thinking mind as helpful…as a tool…as a friend. Trust it to coach you into the formless, which truly is beyond all form. Let go of the idea that you cannot experience formless and form simultaneously. You do this all of the time, for at some level you always experience you. Remember the example of dust on furniture. The thoughts or form is the dust. It need not be wiped away to experience the furniture, because the furniture is much more solid than the dust. You can experience the furniture while also touching the dust, but the focus must not be on the dust, because that will be upsetting to you and you will not notice the furniture.

Let the thinking mind help you by letting it calm you down. Let it remind you of your purpose. Let it be used to place your focus on the furniture. Then even while it continues with its helpful thoughts, which are form, set your heart and your mind on the formless, which is the furniture.

The formless cannot be described, but it can be known. It cannot be brought back into form, but it can be expressed. The real value in touching the formless is not sharing it. That is, the value is not sharing it at the level of form. The real value is knowing it. When you know the formless that you are, you can no longer be shaken by changing form. You cannot be bothered by that which you are not. You can experience the untrue and you can move in it as an expression of truth, but none of that takes away from or adds to what you are. When what you are is known, nothing else truly matters. And when what you are is known, you live in the world as an expression of light, which is communication of an idea of formless within form. This communication cannot give the experience of know thy Self, but it lives the experience of know thy Self so that the possibility of know thy Self is known, even within the expression of form. This wakes up the mind to itself by shining into where mind is looking, even though mind can never truly find itself there.

Question: Is there anything you would like to share with me and Laurent to help us with our “we-ness.”

Answer: Remembering the purpose of your being together is…above all else… important to the strength of “we”. You will experience resistance together as long as there remains some resistance in the mind, but when you remember your purpose the resistance will be experienced together. Remember that it is your oneness that rises to transcend all fears. Do not let your resistance take you to a place of “apart.” In “apart” you live within your fears. In oneness and partnership, you transcend them.

Holding hands is a strong symbol and very useful to the mind, because even in your resistance you know that you can hold hands. And you also realize that in holding hands, you know that current resistance, even if that resistance is experienced as fear or hatred…current resistance is being transcended because you have decided to hold hands.

Go now and love one another as I am loving you. In loving one another with My love, you truly choose to love thy Self.